Tuesday, September 29, 2009
I go through stages where I sing this song practically at the top of my lungs around the house. Specifically while doing the dishes, also specifically when nobody is home.
Also, I came across this great entry by the wonderful Ev'Yan (of the equally wonderful blog Apricot Tea) involving "The Proust Questionnaire". So I've decided to take it, as Proust believed that answering these questions revealed a person's true nature (although I believe that a person's character can extend far beyond what they answer on a questionnaire, but hey it's worth a shot!). I enjoy filling out surveys, mostly because my mind, or at least what I say, changes so much based on the day or mood. Without further adieu-
The Proust Questionnaire
1. What is your idea of perfect happiness? Lately I've been having visions of all of my family and loved ones in a cabin, at Christmas time, enjoying each other's company, laughing, eating, sharing. There is snow outside and my son can't stop being in complete wonder over it. I warm my body with sweaters and coffee from ceramic mugs that keep my hands from chilling. I want this to happen so badly soon, that is my idea of perfect happiness.
2. What is your greatest fear? Losing my husband or son. Just thinking about makes me cry.
3. What is the trait you most deplore in yourself? When I procrastinate. My fickleness. My inability to just pick ONE thing and go with it. My weakness in bouts of stress or depression.
4. What is the trait you most deplore in others? Being judgmental, hypocrisy, entitlement.
5. Which living person do you most admire? I have a few. My grandmothers. One for her work ethic, kindness and generosity. The other for her wisdom and loyalty (and for her stories!). My husband for his honesty and compassion and the way he seems to do the right thing no matter what, he's just true blue. My son for his boldness, a character trait I sometimes wonder if he inherited from my father.
6. What is your greatest extravagance? Make-up sometimes (I've been turned into a Urban Decay and Mac junkie thanks to a friend), making burlesque costumes, but mostly my mind.
7. What is your current state of mind? In need of coffee, somewhat scattered (it is still early) in the way that one is right after waking up where the tail end of your dreams meets the to-do list of your day. Trying to fight its way out of an indecisive fog that has brought on panic in the form of an imaginary clock ticking above my head asking me "where am I going with this?" Enjoying music and its ability to distract me.
8. What do you consider the most overrated virtue? Caution. Too much of it and you can miss out on things.
9. On what occasion do you lie? To protect someone's feelings when I want to say "that band/book/show fucking sucks!" I don't necessarily lie though, it's more so just keeping them from knowing how I really feel.
10. What do you most dislike about your appearance? My nose, sometimes. My stomach (post baby).
11. Which living person do you most despise? I DISLIKE a lot of traits in people these days. But I can't exactly point out any one person without finding 100 more like them and that would waste far too much time and energy than need be.
12. What is the quality you most like in a man? Loyalty and hygiene.
13. What is the quality you most like in a woman? Sincerity and humor.
14. Which words or phrases do you most overuse? "Totally", "no shit!", "I love you", "uggghhhhh"...
15. What or who is the greatest love of your life? My husband and son. Together there is nothing that encompasses so many levels of love the way they do.
16. When and where were you happiest? May 2nd, 2009. My in-law's house. My wedding evening. Our closest family and friends, food, margaritas, and love.
17. Which talent would you most like to have? To be an incredible and honest writer.
18. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? My post-baby body (or at least just the little marks that came with it, I appreciate the curves it's given me, I feel more womanly now).
19. What do you consider your greatest achievement? I've yet to achieve it. But I'd imagine it would be a great career to help support my family and sending my son into the world as a caring, smart and impassioned individual.
20. If you were to die and come back as a person or a thing, what would it be? Myself, just a little wiser and with the same people.
21. Where would you most like to live? In a bungalow with wood floors in a place that sees seasons and creative people (i.e. downtown Tucson or Seattle).
22. What is your most treasured possession? My grandfather's and grandmother's matching rings. My aunt has my grandmother's and I have my grandfather's.
23. What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery? Having someone precious to you die.
24. What is your favorite occupation? One that would support a family and my freedom to be me. No uniforms too.
25. What is your most marked characteristic? My playlists. Or perhaps the way I see things. People tend to comment on that.
26. What do you most value in your friends? A sense of humor (of all varieties), a sense of self, a good music selection.
27. Who are your favorite writers? T.S. Eliot, Chuck Palahnuik, Doulgas Coupland... but I can find a lot of writers I like.
28. Who is your hero of fiction? Not too sure on that one. I don't really have "heroes".
29. Which historical figure do you most identify with? See 28. But I do really like Marie Antoinette. I read a very well written and in-depth biography about her the fall I was pregnant with Jack. I think we would have really hit it off back in the day. I found out we've got Austrian in our lineage as well.
30. Who are your heroes in real life? See 28.
31. What are your favorite names? Stella, Adele, Jack, Vincent, Alice, Syd, Sadie, Eleanor, Olivia, Ari, Dean, Orion, Paige.
32. What is it that you most dislike? Money. Whether you have it or not, it just causes evil.
33. What is your greatest regret? Not wearing more sunscreen/not wearing ENOUGH sunscreen.
34. How would you like to die? Ideally? In bed with my husband, happy. Or I just don't want to know about it.
35. What is your motto? Just live your life, to put it bluntly.